Sickness
Just came back from the doctor. Well, got 2 days MC. Doctor said, yah, most probably due to insufficient sleep. Good and bad in a way. Good is got 2 days MC. Bad is i not feeling well. Argh, can't do my stuff....
RelationshipS
Sigh, i still can't get over it. Especially after a talk with someone else. Someone older than me. He said :"People fall in love because they are attracted to that particular "characteristic". It may not be money. If she left you because of money, why only after 5 years? Maybe what had attracted her in the 1st place is non-existence already? "
He said again "Me doing shift work maybe is part of e reason. True, u still got ur 2 days rest. But 1st, it may not be in the weekend. 2nd, if i doing night shift, i would be falling asleep upon reaching home. Not much time was left for her." This i gotta admit. I've failed miserably in this concept. :[
Mr and Miss Monkey, with their son, criticised me for being that sensitive on Tuesday. How do you wan me to be that insensitive. 5 years +, our life is with each other. Ok, we broke up, and most prob would not patch back. Problem is, we decided to still be friends. Maybe i'm still clingy. Smsing her things that she may not like. But that doesn't mean she need to change her no. without informing me. Her dad informed me that she sold the handphone i had bought for her, and got a NOKIA N73. I was deeply in thought after that. Am i so irritating to her now? That she dun wish to be associated with me? I seriously dunno.
2nd Spring
Some people tried to hook me up with other people. Me 2, was trying to find someone to refrain from loneliness. But it always dawned back on me. Am i being fair to them? Frankly speaking, i'm still not cleared to go for another girl. So to all my admirers (if there ever was any) , i can't even give you all a chance for now. Unless u are willing to be hurt by me, cause i dun think i can be the same wugui in a r/s. Things may not be worse but they r definitely not picking up.
I'm confusing myself as well. There are some girls that i will give almost everything to be with her/them. But the problem always comes up. 1 - they are happily attached. 2 - they are not even attracted to me. 3 - Can i give my all for the r/s and be selfless in r.s again? I seriously dunno.
VaKminG
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